Swallowing

Swallowing my misplaced resolutions, you reach for my finger,
slowly. Funny
that I have less timidity
showing small affections in front of my father
at dinner,
than with our closest friends.
(they may not judge, or even question at this point
but I would rather not chance the confrontation.)

Small affections are all I allow myself -
And you too -
A way to appreciate outside of space and time,
The circumstance,
Or relativity:
A breathing love
We always share.

But,
I guess I should stop speaking for more than myself -

You ask me to walk you home
And I might as well,
I would walk across the town.
(The last of winter troubles
Crushed under my beat-up boots.)
Swallowing,
Smoke from the cigarette we split,
Swallowing,
Thick night air,
And stale words I’ve said before.
Swallowing,
My sighs of relief for
Safety, your well being.
Swallowing,
Down a half-decent beer
Instead of everything else.

"unlike the scientists who did not check their facts,

we went straight to astrology expert Jeff Jawer to clean up this cosmic clutter and explain what really is going on.

"There is no truth in this," Jawer said. "Western Astrologers use the Tropical Zodiac, which is based on the seasons, not the signs. Anyone who seriously researches the subject would know that."

http://www.dailyhoroscope.com/horoscope-headlines/scientists-say-astrology-horoscope-zodiac-signs-wrong

it's too late. you did your damage, scientists, and i don't know what to believe.

three of cups

Reinita

Abuelo,

Thank you so much for the fur. I'm going to take great care of it. It's going to be beautiful in my home. How should I try to hang it?
My vacation was good. A little overwhelming at times. My friends and I together are exciting people who put forth everything they can to experience with feeling and thought, but we're young and sometimes there are too many of us, and we don't know how to always do that positively or at all, try as best we can. I think I did my best and I am very happy and grateful for my time back in Syracuse. I practiced singing quite a bit with my friends who play in a band. I made a couple small collages that I think are good. I practiced driving a lot. I watched television, which was a treat. Had a good Post-Christmas with Dad, Vicky, Nicolette and Marco and his girlfriend, Janine. Nicolette visiting was very good and we spent a good amount of time with her. I decided to come to Geneva early for some rest and prepare myself for this play I am about to begin rehearsing. My house mate just moved in yesterday. He is working on this play with me, and has just spent the past semester in Wales taking acting lessons. He's very talented and easy going. I'm excited to live with him.

Take care, I love you


Reina

Hello beautiful grandaughter, today friday seven I sent the peruvian
I believe alpaca fur, to your address in Geneva. Hopefully you will receive it early next week. Now tell me about your vacation, are you fully recharge for the coming semester ? I wish you the best. Grandpa.

wow, a more instanaenously sentimental tomorrow with gaga.

this is how we grip onto every moment because the next moment is petrifying.

i'll be back, you wicked little town

http://listen.grooveshark.com/s/Beginning_To_See_The_Light/2kjv9g

Awashed Here

... imagine a puddle waking up one morning and thinking, 'This is an interesting world I find myself in - an interesting hole I find myself in - fits me rather neatly, doesn't it? In fact it fits me staggeringly well, must have been made to have me in it!' This is such a powerful idea that as the sun rises in the sky and the air heats up and as, gradually, the puddle gets smaller and smaller, it's still frantically hanging on to the notion that everything's going to be alright, because this world was meant to have him in it, was built to have him in it; so the moment he disappears catches him rather by surprise. Douglas Adams

He's got it right, like, three fourths of the way through

Show me some passion, Javier

http://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2010/12/12/magazine/14actors.html?hp#1

Ducky ruined real men for me when I was 15

And even he couldn't figure out how to get out of his shitty bedroom and go get what he wanted.

this is what i wish it could feel more like

http://listen.grooveshark.com/s/A_Song_For_You/ww34j

it should, for everything i'd like to think we did for it.

Gillian Wearing - 2 into 1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36WUgFMDY-M

7000 words

http://www.7000words.com/en/word/

Abby Kent is a Goddess

All photos by Loren Marshall 2010

Truths of the day

You know it's finals when: You have to walk out of class to get a hold of yourself from crying through your quiz and you find some other woman in another class doing the same.

My landlord is harrassing me about our business arrangement to get his houses rented for him next year and I did the unthinkably-Reina and fucking called my daddy on him.

Fernando, I hope you didn't blow it and I can still try to get the thousand bucks per house if I land them next semester... but it can't happen until next semester, and I can't have him calling and texting me at all hours of every day. When he's calling more than my father, brother, best friends and housemate combined, we have a problem; It's refreshing to hear my father say what he knows is a truth for me and has always been: I can do anything I put my mind to, but I can only put my mind on so many things, and it's impossible for me to work under someone else's pressure." Possibly cliche? It's the first thing that I would call it if someone else said it. But he's right; that shit ruins me.

RECESS Exhibit

http://recesshws.blogspot.com/

Blogged documentation of the exhibit currently at Houghton House's Davis Gallery at Hobart and William Smith Colleges. My video is 20 minutes long and vimeo and youtube did NOT accept it. I will be cutting it into two parts soon. Stay tuned. It was an exciting experience.